After You Go

AFTER

You've let me go when I needed you the most
You've dimmed the lights in my life
My clouds have darkened
I am no longer yours
But I am even less of my own
You've taken a knife from my own roof 
And stabbed my way of living
Water has been flowing
I don't know where I am going
Thought you would help
Of course, you've given up
Why have you cut my legs off
You were supposed to help me grow
I'm not ready to say goodbye
Will we ever say hello again
I keep trying, 
You keep hiding
You've kept secrets from me 
I've recognized it
You've broken me
In ways, I found impossible to believe
I've held your hand
I'm familiar
We've been climbing a mountain
I guess we've fallen now
Why does the fall hurt more than expected
That's right,
You've pushed me
The memories hurt me but thank you.

As I lay down on my bed🛏

On my pillow I lay my head

Watchn' my room all dark and damp

Try to see you but I can't

I try to close my eyes and try to sleep

But your care didn't let me dream

I feel like I've been torn apart

Am broken as it seems

As I am not a liar and not that smart

And that's why I am helpless my part

I turn side to side I feel so restless

And I know today am not gonna sleep

I know that am gonna still misis' you

It is something I always do

There was a time when you call me as we

Do you think still just like me?

I can hear the clock⏲ ticking so slow

Then why our time went by so fast

Just when I went wrong in a heart 

And you make this all not happen so last

Is this how you feelings change and lost?

I could not sleep and I couldn't not dream

As i get up in the morning still all same 

You may be your best but am still in pain

My daily routine quickly takes

It seems you're not luvn me coz it's all my mistakes...

Feel like going back to the bed to stay sometime there

Your distance is what I can't bear

You said you'd never leave me and you are

Then where are you when I want you here

My daily routine went so same nothing good and nothing new

I am hurting myself all by thinking of you...

Some how I get on the stairs and corridor I board

Going down to your class

With your thought in my mind

And a heart which skips a beat

Class is crowded and my mind too

There's nothing now I can't do for you

You never seem to wave me good bye

It was always last we met and you just make me cry

As I pass thru your corridor

just to the right

I speed up a bit to skip this sight

I know no one will be there for me any more

The stairs here seems to be so long

What on the earth should do right to end this wrong

Suddenly all thoughts disappears and go

I turn my face and ask why...???